Lost in Thought.....

Everybody is somebody’s secret. Of course, we admit it only amongst ourselves.

Secret lives, secret wishes and secret lovers. Flirty email exchanges, enticing instant messaging, old flames that never extinguished and planned happily ever after stories that never take shape. We get lost in the illusion that because it has yet to happen – it still could because anything is possible, right?

It seems as if the “that girl” has been someone’s secret, since her divorce. Involved with someone but no one else is to ever know. Whether it by work circumstance to keep the gossip non-existent or those she’s been involved with had a secret “other life” at home – hiding it from yours truly. Choosing to hide me from what they have at home. You know, sometimes secrets aren’t so secret after all.

Allow me to state for the record, I don’t like to be hidden. I like to be out loud, I don’t hide very well. I can go under the radar but I am seldom overlooked. Not easy to pass by for whatever reason. When I explore a city, I’m usually on my own. I have no troubles dining by myself or going to the movies alone. Actions like those simply make me stand out even more.

The only place in the world I’ve blended in and gone unnoticed is LA, because unless you’re famous or dressed to inspire your own fame – no one looks. No one cares and quite frankly, it’s one reason I love LA. You don’t know me, I don’t know you – I am just another blonde standing in line at Urth Café on Melrose.

Oops, I digressed.

I hate secrets, unless you plan to share them with me. I hate secrets especially if I’m it. How can anyone live for the moment if we have to keep it secret and hidden from another? I embrace and cherish that lover’s exchange where you share something and it’s yours and you guard it under lock and key for life. But if your secret is a lie to someone else – well then, its not a secret, it’s just shit.

Live for now, not tomorrow. Live for the moment not for how we hope it might be in the future. Keep hope alive but don’t lose sight of who is by your side this very moment. Embrace them; don’t hide them. When you hide another, you will find yourself hiding as well.

Now tell me, who’s secret are you?

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