At home decompressing

Waking up to waves crashing on the shore, on the edge of an island, in a stilt house built over the sea. I’m in a serene state of mind unlike 48 hours ago at the final show of the tour. The sea breeze caresses and rests upon my skin. Its salty, humid essence engulfs me.

I walk thru the gardens to enjoy breakfast by the pool. I am still. I am calm. Gosh, I wish I could stay this way forever but today I must leave and continue my journey. The last few days here have helped me to cleanse the 9 weeks of tour from my system. Exhaustion and frustration still linger yet the last few days here have lessened their impact on my psyche.

I make my way back to mainland Malaysia by way of ferry. On the flip side of the ferry awaits a Mercedes sedan to take me back to the city and after a 4 hour car ride through rural fields we emerge into the city of Kuala Lumpur. I’m on the midnight plane to start my 31 hour journey home to Florida, and I take with me the salt air, sweat and the grit of the city. From Kuala Lumpur to Seoul. Seoul to Newark. Newark to Tampa - I think I’ve covered enough of the earth’s circumference for one long ass day.

The serenity of the island transcends me all the way home, back to my stilt house on the beach - on the other side of the planet. With my toes buried in the sand, I try desperately to digest the last 9 weeks constant motion; of constantly feeling like a fish out of water and chronically unfulfilling work - trying to make sense of it all. I’m not confident I will continue on the present path but I am quite thankful for where it’s taken me. I am ever so grateful for where I’ve been. It’s possible I may have outgrown this one and that scares the hell out of me because when you outgrow something - it’s time to grow into something new. And if you don’t challenge yourself to grow, where else can you go?

1. Simon says,

   Hi, I really like your webside and all the stories and sometimes I kind of might relate to the situations, though on local level. It seems to me like this leg of the tour was pretty tough and worn you out…Well, I hope that you really get some wonderful time off and I hope to see you in Stockholm. Best Regards, Simon
2. Sloane Golden says,

   Hi, It was great to see you at the book signing. Thank you for coming, and you left too soon. You will grow into something great and strong, I know you will. You have a lot to say to the world, and you will someday soon. God bless you, and keep you out there on the road. Sloane

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